Today

Embarking on a new adventure. Another human careening violently through relationships, parenthood, and fucked up situations. Though over the past few days I have learned more about the strange, careless, manipulative behavior of our kind than ever before. We are scared, lonely little creatures. fearing that which never seems to occur and wanting what often seems impossible. My only refuge is to live in the moment.

Dreams

Of all the dreams I have, one stands out. I am standing in a hotel lobby, very confused and very tired. This gentleman comes up to me and shakes my hand. His grip is firm, yet his eyes are uncertain. He is your father. For a quiet moment I gather all my senses. I realize I am in the presence of a good man. An honest man. I look him in the eye and I tell him I think the world of his beautiful daughter. We share simpatico. In the corner of my eye I see you. You are beaming, the days to follow will be a celebration. I feel your happiness, but I am not sure if I just see this or if I'm dreaming. Suddenly I float above the scene. I see you still beaming holding someone's hand. I am far above.......music comes to me and I close my fist in prayer. I loved you a thousand years ago, in all my past lives, yesterday, today and tomorrow.